Union Episode 1: The issue 1 Menance

I woke up feeling like the weight of the whole world was on my back on Wednesday. The previous day I had also woken up with a feeling of " how am I going to do it," "how am I going to create a page on my own and not mess it up." This is probably the most pressured I have felt in a long time because if I fail, its not only a failure for me but it disrupts everyone else and this is something I don't want to have happen. I spent about eight to nine hours in the newsroom working on my page, which probably could have been done a lot faster. I may be a seasoned veteran on the "Union" but as a editor i am a rookie who needs to step it up if I am to make it any further as a editor. I walked into the room with a feeling of excitement but also with a feeling of a nervousness. 

Nick pulled me aside to discuss with me what was expected, which I greatly appreciated because he gave me a heart to heart and we found common ground in knowing that we both were just "sick to our stomachs" about production, it feels as if Nick is taking me under his wing since he was in my position a previous semester before. Up to this point I had felt good about what I was going to produce but then an anxiety fell over me that began to consume me that maybe I am not going to be very good at it and everyone is going to recognize my faults.  Then I realized I just put too much pressure on myself and that I just need to adjust, do what I need to do, eventually all the pieces of the puzzle will fall in to place. Pearl is stressed enough with worrying about the writers and how our people will turn out to have to worry about every single editor, I need to be better at making her job easier by being more on top of things because I do really care about this paper and want the features page to be fantastic this semester but it will take time and will be a hard road for me to walk this semester. Who knows what in store for the upcoming issues, but i can only take it in strides.